The Insidious Senior

Disclaimer: My thoughts, as rash as they are, are my own thoughts and opinions.

Not those of Monochromatic Rainbows.

Note: Lots of insults ahead, some of which are not the original manifestation of my brain.

Raised in a traditional Chinese family with Chinese values, I'm not one usually susceptible to moronic and pointless dishonorment of seniors and those older than me. But neither am I a coward hiding under a blanket of cowardice (thought I would emphasize the point in case I wasn't clear enough just how much of a non-coward I am).

I'm sorry I cannot say the same for "The Insidious Senior" whose ONE single action has left me with a strong feeling of abhorrence and indignation.

Before I unfold the sequence of today's events I must before give you a disclaimer: I'm a healthy girl of 16 years of age; a hormonal girl who might very well be overreacting about this situation but I am quite aware that neither am I a creature with staggeringly retarded perspicacity.

The Tale:

My mother gave me a Bible several years back; it was a leather NIV version, which I soon took a liking to. I wrote my name on the title page and my mother's but soon after I got a blood red/burgundy NKJV Bible. I am ashamed to say I much preferred this new one from then on and so left that leather NIV on my shelf one day. Earlier this year, my homeroom teacher required of us a Bible to be put under our school desk and so I brought my pastel orange NIV to school and placed it under my desk, which, to my agitation, soon disappeared. Fast forward several months and come today, 10th of December 2007 - I found it. I found it in Pak Purba's room, but it wasn't how it was before. I cannot form into words the extent of the damage. My friend L kindly photoed the images. From what previously was a Bible of relatively good conditions, it had now become this piece of masquerading ... something

I'm not the most ardent of Christians, but neither am I bereft of a conscience and a sense of decency (both of which this particular senior appears to lack).

We often mistreat our Bible, scribble on it, pile things on top of it, and other forms of negligence I'm sure our adolescent minds can cook up from here to the beyond, but this! this is far from negligent. In fact, this senior took measures to destroy it. I don't care at all if he IS an atheist, or Buddhist, or Muslim, or SATANIC even, I am just at complete loss at how this could happen at a supposedly Christian school.

I'm not suggesting he be suspended or anything of the sort, (some divine retribution, some divine intervention which would eventually lead to some pains, in his life would be perfectly acceptable)

Yet, I'm not God, nor do I have any sort of authority to punish him, that's fine, but I can mock him, can't I? So here I am: fuming, scheming, typing.

Dear Senior, If you're reading this, I would advise you to close your sorry little four-eyed eyes and go play hentai games/kill helpless animals or anything equally pathetic.

The thing is, you lied, I asked you, confronted you earlier this day and you lied. I was at the time unaware that you out of what petty little brain you have decide to write you name and GRADE on the side cover. I never really did suspect that the other person named 'R' in MY grade would do such a thing because you know why? Frankly he's smarter, he would realize that

a.) it's a Bible.

b.) destroying the Bible would anger someone.

But more than that, I knew that person had a modicum of respect for people's beliefs. Unlike you. Because that's what it amounts to: blatant disregard of people's property. And that property, IS A FREAKING BIBLE.

I do not care if you thought it was amusing, because if that what it was, amusement, a way to settle your boredom than you really are scum, fit to wiggle away the rest of your life among the lowest of the lowest.

Denial of your actions or even trivializing the matter just adds up to laughable cowardice.

And if you decide to mock me or ask the help of your friends, that's just horribly pathetic, I the lone short junior girl who have been scared refused backup from friends. (Because your pettiness did not deserve their attention despite their equally enraged emotions hearing your lack of ... numerous moral/ethical/human qualities.)

And no, I want nothing, nothing you do will appease me. An apology? Sure.

A replacement for my Bible, no, that's the only thing I do not want as a result. Verbal sparing, disagreements, bring it on. But I beg everyone not to stupidly appease me by giving me another Bible, because this isn't what it's all about at all.

It's about how someone could be so idiotic....., no I take that back, calling you an idiot would be horrible insult to actual idiots. I'm not simply enraged because of his contemptible conduct. It's about him damaging an item that people have died for, and tortured because.

An item, a symbol far grander, more purposeful, and more important than ANY of his DREAMS could ever be (let alone accomplish).

So there, I'm apologize that I took so many words to convey the extent of his imbecility.

Because honestly, I do not have any desire to make him seem like a fool.

Why should I take all that credit.

Our Liberty is Our Suicide

Change is for good. Liberalism liberates. Boundaries bind. - Ideas that deceptively promise to make the world a better place. 

Collective surveys say that nine out of ten Americans have had premarital sex. In fact, there, fornication is so casual that people pride themselves on how many sex partners they've had. To my dismay, some people I know have begun to make sex a routine parts of their lives. Parents begin to teach their kids on how to wear condoms, reinforcing the decadent idea that "premarital sex is fine," as long as it is done "safely". Why not? After all, Western society – the “idyllic” society – believes in freedom to do anything with our libido-driven flesh.

I - someone of more conservative character - is detested by everyone for trying to do something about the gradual suicides of my peers. They call me disrespectful of their so-called “rights". I lay in grief and despair as I witness the loss of innocence – the embitterment of my cherry-topped youth.

We Asians look up to Westerners like they are gods. Escorts prance around malls with bule in their arms and radiate a nauseating aura of self-worship, as if their social status is raised for sleeping with a Caucasian. We all fail to see that every culture is equal, as we abandon our heritage in search of becoming more like them. And in our pursuit of becoming American, we seek to morph Asia into an American Asia – an orgasmic “utopia” advocating the "freedom" to sin.

Western countries perceive the ideal living haven as a place where equality, human rights, and liberty are commonplace. Their societies are structured upon this philosophy where the sky is the limit. The problem is, the human body and mind is naturally stupid. It desires to get drunk, die of liver failure, fornicate, get pregnant, rot of AIDS, and self-destruct. Yet asinine freedom is encouraged – freedom to allow our natural defects to take hold of ourselves.

Needless to say, Western ideologies also base life on independence, productivity, fulfillment based on achievement, and pushing yourselves to the limit – commendable ideals that I applaud. And for them, freedom allows for success to be achieved to the maximum. Yet here, we find many of the most Americanized teenagers to be daughters and sons of privileged entrepreneurs who superficially base their lives on who has the most expensive bags and cars – bags and cars bought by inherited wealth. So here we find Indonesian youth plague-ridden by a class of the idle rich – Paris Hiltons and Nicole Richies – purposeless, spoiled, deflowered, promiscuous, Americanized brats.

America's rubbish we glutonously devour. Its gold we heedlessly throw away.

Friends, America is here! Iniquity poses as liberty, and we gladly take it. We eradicate our sense of value, our tradition, our dignity. Globalization is the new colonialism! No longer are we united by corpulent kings and queens engraved to the back of coins, but united by garmentless people on magazines. Unity by the queen is so over; a new form of unity is here – Unity by promiscuity!

Here we stand in the “height of modern civilization.” Here we lay in schizophrenic fallacy. Here we witness the stupid; exalted, the wise; mocked. Here, as moral ground corrodes, we deny, we conform, and we blithely march towards hell under the iniquitous mask of heaven.